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Mizore23

~Hoist The Colors~
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I'm freaking tired. Like literally drained. At work. Noisy ass kids. And I freakin signed up for next semester's classes.

Literally none of my family knows how f*ckin stressful college is. Nope. i have 0 help. My mom just constantly tells me to make sure I get done what I need to get done. My aunt, cousins, sisters, mom... they expect me to be some genius but I DESPISE COMMUNITY COLLEGE. I'm taking classes I took in high school... expect they're harder and the teachers grade a million times harder. High school didn't f*ckin prepare me for this shite. Sorry for the language but I'm tired and just ugh. Stressful ass day.

Usually nearly every day is stressed but no one really cares to ask. You'd think my mom would ask. She sees me every day. But no. Sometimes I wonder if I should type up my life story. But then I figure people will think I'm a total whiner since there's people in way worse situations. Yeah, I know that. I remind myself that every time I yell at my ceiling. But hey, everyone has their own shite to deal with and we deserve some vent time. If you're some teeny bopper that gets everything you want, lives in a nice house, gets good food and snacks and drinks, gets freedom, and you have expensive shit that your parents give you... I don't want to hear one f*ckin complaint from you. Unless you have some severe mental problem or something terrible has happened to you... shut it. Because I'm sick of hearing how someone's mom didn't get them the right flippin' iPhone. I had a tiny Nokia phone as my first phone. My sister got a nice touch screen phone and after a few months she got it taken away for good. I was so ticked.

But anywho, I'm just letting whomever reads this know that I am really tired and ticked and just stressed. I'm sure many of you can relate. I really wish I had someone to talk to. Face to face, you know? My 'friends' from high school just disappeared on me and apparently it's my fault that I don't live on Facebook. I have a phone. None of them bother to call or text. So, I figure it's best to be alone. I have two friends. Both live far from me and it sucks.

Another thing I wanna vent about is feelings. Like 'love'. I wanna know how the hell you can avoid it. Because I fell for someone, fast, and turns out Im only seen as a friend. Big shocker, right? Yeah, well I've known that I've been destined to be forever the amazing friend that will always be there for you no matter what. Unless you give me a real reason to never speak to you again. But I f*ckin fell in love with a friend and now I'm just their friend. That's it. And I can't get rid of these damn feelings. It's like if Will told Elizabeth that he desperately loved her and she said, "Oh, um that's sweet but I just think we should be friends." and then she went and flirted with Captain Jack Sparrow. Yeah. I'm Will. Can you imagine how I freakin feel?! Well, I think Adam Sandler said it best in the movie "The Wedding Singer" when he sang ~ LOVE STINKS ~. Yup. I don't want to tell anyone how I feel about them anymore. Yeah, I know. I shouldn't do that, blah blah blah, someone's gonna love you and it'll be your fault they get away and blah blah... I know this. I have accepted that. And I'm pretty okay with it. Sure, if I was someone else then yeah I would definitely be confident to fall in love. But I'm me. And me + love is never going to work. Sorry.

Well, I think that's enough for tonight. I'm gonna go home to sleep. Yipee.
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It's Sunday.

1 min read
Just typing because in here because I have nothing better to do. I could be drawing or writing but lately I've been depressed... i guess. I mean, I'm aware that I'm becoming less enthused(?) and no fun to talk to. I try to keep up a peppy facade but it's hard to. There's just so much that has happened to me this year and it's like I can't get a freaking break. But I guess it could be worse. It probably will get worse but I'm hoping for things to get better. I want to be happy. I just... I can't when so much is weighing me down, ya know?

Well, if :icondreamykoolkat: reads this... I would like to let you know that I will probably re-write the stories with Kenji, Rachelle, and Sakura. They'll be different but hopefully you'll like them. And I'll get your drawings up soon, I hope...


Well, I hope everyone has a great Sunday... and hopefully things will take a turn for the better.
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I don't really mind if people read this. I just need a place to vent and this is better than bugging people and upsetting them.

Today I've realized how awful I am. Well these past few weeks I've realized how awful I am. I'm not going to get into specifics... but it just sucks knowing that not only do I have stressful, painful, aching problems but that I'm the main reason that those problems were created. And I'm trying to fix them but it still doesn't make me feel any better. I've gotten advice from some friends but it's just... i don't want advice. I just want what everyone wants... for the problems to go away.

I'm not entirely awful. But I'm still awful. I guess the only thing I can do is just try to fix each problem one by one.


Oi. Well, I'm done venting.

Soon I have to go to school.

Hope everyone has a great Wednesday.

bye.
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Music = Life

1 min read
Opening credits: Only Exception ~ Paramore

• Waking up: Ours ~ Taylor Swift

• Falling in love:  Please Don't Leave Me ~ P!NK (XDDD NICE)

• Fight song: The Show Must Go On ~ Moulin Rouge Soundtrack

• Breaking up:  It Wasn't Me ~ Shaggy ((LMFAO XDDDD))

• Getting back together:  Bleeding Love ~ Leona Lewis

• Wedding: Kiss The Rain ~ Yiruma

• Birth of child:  Skyscraper ~ Demi Lovat (O.O?)

• Final battle:  Bring Me to Life ~ Evanescence

• Death scene: Girl on Fire ~ Arshad

• Funeral song:  Come What May ~ Moulin Rouge Soundtrack

• End credits: Titanium ~ David Guetta ft. Sia


Stole this from :icondarkmoonsigel:

^^
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AVENGERS!

4 min read
Tony Stark/Iron man

[ ] You like booze

[ ] You are the life of the party

[x] You love gadgets

[x] You can be rather cocky **depends on who I'm around XD**

[x] Your favorite colour is red or gold

[x] You're good with computers

[x] You use sarcasm a lot

[ ] You love getting attention   

[x] You're good at mechanics

[x] You have issues with your parents

7/10


Dr. Bruce Banner/ The Hulk

[ ] You're good at science

[x] You can get very agressive when ticked off

[x] You like to be secluded most of the time

[x] You like wearing baggy clothes

[ ] You like to meditate

[x] You like doing science experiments

[x] You try to avoid getting into fights

[x] You like wearing purple things

[x] You're clever

[ ] Your favorite color is green

7/10


Thor

[x] You're good with a hammer  

[ ] You like coffee  

[x] You can eat a truckload of food and still be hungry

[ ] You can be arrogent

[ ] You have long hair

[x] You have an interest in astrology

[x] You can get sulky when things don't go your way

[x] You're willing to take a fall for someone else  

[x] You like to dress up as fantasy characters

[x] You don't get on well with your sibling  

7/10


Steve Rogers/ Captain America

[x] You like helping those in need in any way you can

[x] You hate bullies

[ ] You're a great leader

[x] You're a bit of a do-gooder

[x] One of your favorite colour is red, white or blue

[ ] You like wearing things with stars on them

[x] You strongly admire the army  

[x] You have a good throwing arm

[x] You like war films

[ ] You're good at running

7/10


Colonel Nick Fury

[x] You like wearing long coats

[ ] You're good at organizing things

[x] You're good at being in the loop

[x] You like guns

[x] You're good at giving information to people

[x] You like giving solutions to people's problems

[x] You like eyepatches

[ ] You work best as part of a team

[ ] You like beards

[x] You like wearing black things

7/10


Natasha Romanova/Black Widow

[ ] You like wearing tight clothes

[ ] You can do martial arts

[x] You're intrested in the world of spies

[ ] You have red hair

[ ] You're quite agile

[x] People generally don't know much about the real you

[ ] You like to make yourself look good

[ ] You can speak another language

[ ] You're good at taking orders

[ ] You were born in a different country to the one you are living in now

2/10


Clint Barton/ Hawkeye

[ ] You're very good at archery.  

[x] You currently like/love someone on your team

[x] You like to wear purple and black

[x] You're very good at aiming

[ ] You've worked at the carnival

[ ] You like working in a team

[x] You're up for almost anything thrown at you

[x] You'd be a top assassin if you ever took the job

[x] You're quiet

[x] You tend to get along with people well  

7/10


Loki

[x] You want to be a great leader

[x] You want to prove something

[ ] You're the younger sibling

[ ] You've been/are overshadowed by a sibling

[x] You don't get along so great with your sibling

[x] You're good at lying  

[ ] You're adopted

[/] You're very clever

[/] You are able to manipulate people well

[ ] Your favorite color is green or gold

5/10


I'm pretty much everyone BUT Loki XDDDDDD
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